Monday, July 30, 2007 ♥ 7:48 PM
i'd rather you not say anything if you didn't mean anything- like stop putting on this facade that makes everyone think that you're some kinda perfect (*&^%$ cos seriously, its SO SO far from that. what i meant as good intentions was totally taken as trash, squashed up and thrown back at me ten times the rudeness and the force. it would be none of my business if you didn't happen to be such a significant part of my life, seriously.
can't wait to get out of this fereeakkkkkeeeeinnnggg place.
(dont respond, i'm just gonna be angry for a little bit)
THIS, was supposed to be a happy post
Saturday, July 28, 2007 ♥ 1:12 PM
Monday, July 23, 2007 ♥ 9:30 PM
SO, rapture's over and i'm suffering from withdrawal symptoms
couldn't contain all the emotions even up till now as i look through all the dance photos ): almost jerked out what seemed like tears when i saw jun shijie lyn cindy and all at school today! i keep on thinking back on all gruelling rehearsals, the crazy quick changes, the late nights that we had staying back to do costumes and whatnot, the trips to costume shops, the long bus rides to RP and wherever else we performed, the horrible 'hiphop' music for WAD, collecting our i love our juniors shirt in the rain with keish, the NO EATING IN THE STUDIO, the milis stampede, the mouldy and rotted cupboards in the studio, the planning of CIP and how badly it rained, apeewees, the cca signup, sentio, danceworks practices in which we almost died, the emo shit, shantishanti, the dinners at crystal jade, the discovery of pasarmalams and jurong point, tamas (mine's cute now), tauhuey, tangyuan, chinatown with lyn, toma and cindy's psychotic backcombed hair, transformers, true friend, beef noodles, footlong subways, dancing in crazyhighheelboots, zouk, partying, running up mediacorp stairs, strutting our stuff on the 'runway', NO ONE UGLY ALLOWED and everyone would point to lyn, zamzam, charshaoshaoroufan, instant noodles, elephant, cindy's rolls, horrible GO dancing, people asking us to turn the music down when its their fault for not giving us a studio, impossible lifts, esplanade's amazingness, the GOLD that was worth more than any kinda honors, UCC rehearsals and so much more. now that all that's over, i wouldn't hesitate if i were given a choice to do it all over again, cos i love SA dance that much! but for now, i'm just thankful that i was part of all that, and thank God for all the friendships forged, hopefully for life (:
now i feel like crying all over again. i still can't believe all of these have come to and end last night- it was like as if it had never happened at all! happened TOO FAST, i didn't even have time to take it all in. it seemed like the appeal auditions were just yesterday because i can vividly remember what happened! i remember the indian lady at the counter being so nice to keish and veeks and like totally ignoring me.
to the J2 dancers, i just wanted to let them know that even though this is like the end kinda thing, i don't think i'll be able to forget any of you BECAUSE we're all so retarded together all the time (: to: KEISH, VEEKS, KRIS, LYN, CINDY, MAU, JUN, SHIJIE, XINYI AND LEILEI, seeing you guys in school never fail to make me happy (: love you guys so so so much and thanks for being such blessings! hongheng, you get special mention because you never fail to take pictures and provide us with some sorta memory : D DARREN, thanks for being so understanding all the time and so willing to help and stay back for practices (:
to the CRAZY and WEIRD j1s, i don't mean like weird weird, but i mean weird in a nice kinda way (: to: germaine, stephanie, amanda, dawn, constance and tingying, i love you guys too! (:
the ONE thing that i will never regret bout SA is dance (: it's what kept me alive, seriously!
thanks also to those who came to support rapture (: the nightshow was especially amazing (:
SA DANCE IS THE LOVE
see, God really does have a perfect plan for everything (:
Tuesday, July 17, 2007 ♥ 10:09 PM
into the grey sky morning
this year's b'day was probably the best EVER (: will do a proper update once rapture's over!
which BTW, is damn soon. too soon! THREE MORE DAYS. but its okay, i know its gonna be good (:
maybe it IS better this way
but it's not so bad,
you're only the best I ever had
Friday, July 13, 2007 ♥ 12:04 AM
there's something jiggling inside my computer! annoying like -_-harry potter tmrw! : D can't wait! hehe
then again, there's dance- it's getting kinda depressing, in ways no one can guess
council stepped down today.. thought it was rather sad!
its so true that all good things come to an end
why's it always have to be that way?
Tuesday, July 10, 2007 ♥ 10:49 PM
Alessandra Ambrosio
Adriana Lima
Karolina somethingverycomplicated
Gisele Bundchen
THATS IT! the thing that karolinasthsth wore was worth US$6MILLION okay!!
anyways, school today was a blast! cos she didn't come today. got back half of geog (which was surprisingly good!) and miss chua's lit which i'm just happy to not have failed : D thank God, its like a miracle! i need many many more miracles though! okay off to sleep even though i'm supposed to pack my room. DEAD beat!
Monday, July 09, 2007 ♥ 9:27 PM
a long time ago, i would have wished it were me.BUT YOU KNOW WHAT,
I COULDN'T HAVE BEEN MORE WRONG!
i'm SO happy : D
Saturday, July 07, 2007 ♥ 8:05 PM
hello people! (:i got caught by missk again.. URGH very annoying i really think she has something against me!! kinda sucks ): to her, NOTHING can be seen as reason enough. she's part of the reason why i can't wait to leave sajc. actually, WAIT. make her the ONE AND ONLY reason. i mean, how can any living soul tolerate seeing her every morning at seven twenty until farewell assembly? thats just crazy. URGH she should find a husband ):
I HATE HER
she makes me sin.
OKAY, enough bout that edfkjasdflsdhbglu person. THINK HAPPY THOUGHTS!
block test 2's officially over! thats ONE HUGE CAUSE for some sorta celebration. stayed back in school for dance a little while before lyn and hannah came home with me (: went to meet keish and mok (whowereabsolutelylate) to watch TRANSFORMERS! gosh it was REALLY REALLY GOOD. never thought i would actually like shows with robots in it. but SURPRISINGLY, i did!! and i liked it very very much. GO WATCH IT IF YOU HAVENT : D so after that, hannah went home and the four of us trooped down to meet jesse at zouk for MAMBO NIGHT! CROWDED LIKE HELL. but it was so damn funny cos all four of us were underage, and we had to memorise the ID stuff. ahaha in the end they didn't even ask! felt so cheated. it was so bloody crowded that there was NO SPACE TO EVEN MOVE.. crazy i was shoved into numerous torsos. but it wasn't too bad in the end cos we went over to zouk from phuture and met crazy emmy and her crazy boyfriend there. i was so damn thirsty!!
then last night, went shopping with lyn in the morning and had subway breakfast which was absolutely yummy ((: went to school after that for dance, then went shopping with keish (again). i swear both of us were so damn tired but thank GOD we managed to get quite a lot of things. met her and lyn and cin again at vk's house for her birthday celebration. AND MARCUS'S as well. (oh shit i realised i forgot..) HAHAH srini and i were being retarded hiding at the playground cos we thought it'd be weird!
YOU KNOW WHAT, DEATH NOTE ROCKS MY SOCKS!!!! I LOVE KIRA AND L! they're such geniuses, really!!! : D watched 1 and 2 last night and i'm so happy. ahahah totally worth the lack of sleep : D i shall upload many many photos (okay lurh, not that many) so that you can admire them HAHAHA. (L's not THAT cute, but he's so funny and retarded!)
THERE : D tatsuya fujiwara (kira/light) is such eyecandy material : D
anyhoos, dance today was wayy tiring. i can't wait to finish off my dance!! i need zhijun to be really brave, and darren to be really strong. K BYEBYE! dinner time (:
Monday, July 02, 2007 ♥ 10:42 PM
wednesday wednesday wednesday, come faster!!!!!!!!!math tmrw, and i'm quite excited!! ahha i don't know why. bet i'll come out of it feeling like #$%^&*#@ but its okay, cos i trust in Him! (: God's been SO faithful throughout this entire period ((:
everythingbecomesokayafterawhile (: we just have to learn when to let go, accept and move on. otherwise, we'll become like stupid JOHN THE SAVAGE who self-destructs. HAHA he's irritatingly stubborn and retarded, just like his londoner counterpart WINSTON SMITH. i like helmholtz watson and lenina though (: speaking of which, i'm so not looking forward to being dumbfounded on wednesday. i'm sure there'll be high inertia when i first see the questions. HAHA miss k's questions always always always have that effect. hopefully, i won't be dumbfounded for too long..
BET YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M TALKING BOUT! : D
studied with lydia the toh today, and i think it was quite productive even though we (or rather I) kept stoning halfway through. ahha : D i like studying with people cos then i'll feel less scared. hate it when i'm alone then that stupid horrible feeling finds its way into my stomach and does horrible things in it. DIM SUM before that with mother father sister grandmother grandfather and kuma : D ahhaha it was quite fun. but then! i think adults have no life! first category: my poor grandparents just sit there and eat cos they have no idea what their kids are talking bout (they don't know engriisshh) second cat: the parents and the aunty just keep talking bout stupid property prices and enblocs. don't they EVER get sick of it? crazy! third cat: my sister and i. HAHAH i don't even know what we're doing.
OKAY bye!
Sunday, July 01, 2007 ♥ 7:37 PM
I SMELL MY DOG, BUT I REALLY DON'T KNOW WHERE SHE IS!anyways, that strange strange strange feeling's back again. i don't know what to do bout it because it's been so long since i've felt this way. BUT LIKE, WHATEVER. shall not, and WILL NOT think about it! (: ignorance IS bliss (: [this is the good thing that happened- good being relative]
/edit [and THIS, is the not so good thing that happened. again, relative]
HELLO, HOW COME I DON'T KNOW ANYTHING THAT'S GOING ON?! feel so cheated, like OMGGGG pls!!! so super cheated!!! i wish you had just told me straight, and spare me all this agony! (*%$#@#$%^& what's the point of letting me know when it's too darn late -_-' crazy bugger. cheat my feelings, i'm SO SO SO NOT gonna trust you anymore. just go like, fug yourself or sth.
don't worry, nothing bad happened. JUST FEEL SO -_-'''''' URGH.
//edit
YOU KNOW WHAT, i changed my mind! i am not going to care. or at least, i'm gonna pretend not to care because you probably don't even care anyways. next time, just know that.. WAIT, there's not gonna be a next time. i am purging YOU out of my system FORRREEEVEEEERRR. ahahhaha i sound so drama, but seriously! i mean it (: and now, i'm happy.
don't ask me what happened, cos i'm probably not gonna tell you.