Monday, August 28, 2006 ♥ 7:23 PM
I HAVE NO IDEA WHY I KEEP BANGING INTO THINGS AND MAKING A FOOL OUTTA MYSELF NOWADAYS. i dont seem to use my eyes anymore. AH SO EMBARRASSING!!!!Friday, August 25, 2006 ♥ 12:18 AM
such a horrible day today..miss k's lesson really got me quite demoralised.
but i really did try. if staying up till 2 am yest didnt prove it, i cant say anything anymore.
and now i'm supposed to be doing math but i refuse to touch it
on top of that there's econs and chinese test and i havent started on both.
someone stab me!
it feels like you're a million miles away
the story's ending.
we play the part,
but we're just pretending.
FROST TURNS FIVE today ((: she's such a bundle of joy. thank God for that LOVE.
Tuesday, August 22, 2006 ♥ 10:11 PM
THE BREAK-UP!! ((:i love my puppy to bits. her birthday's in THREE DAYS!! ((:
went window shopping at ikea for my sister with my father
and then i came home and slept for half an hour. after which, i went to watch THE BREAK UP!! ((:
gonna try to do SOME work now. which i doubt i will.. haha prob end up falling asleep.. byebye (:
♥ 11:07 AM
this is the LOVELY TREE at sa's side gate ((:
hahha my little JAPAN :D and they all laughed at me when i was trying to take a nice picture.
brought frost down for a wlk just now and she had SOFT SHIT. its soooo gross. she needs to see a doctor soon.
and just as i predicted, i'm wasting away my holiday.
BOO to school tmrw.
one look at you- thats all it takes to get my depressed all over again.
and i've got a new obsession with keith urban (:
Monday, August 21, 2006 ♥ 9:54 PM
HAHA hilarious isnt it.
went to some kueh house today where we experienced NONYAnes and BABAness first hand. it was peculiar!! but i had fun with my a8-ters. and my DEAREST class had to sabo me to go up to be the model for the kebaya thingey. is it kebaya. AIYA haha whatever its called la. and yisiong was the boy. hahaha. it was retarded beyond retarded! and laoshi didnt help either when she kept saying yuqi yuqi yuqi.
argh.
strange sense of deja vu when that happened because i remember being sabo-ed onstage in p5 when we went to some opera teahouse thing. i was FORCED to go onstage to learn opera steps. and i VIVIDLY remember the whole situation.
not much of a pleasant memory, but a memory nonetheless.
and i took laoshi's car there with these two retarded peeps while the rest had to take BUS. hohoho.
after all that, xr, dra and i went off the suntec to eat SUBWAY (: and we walked around. and dra went to fix her phone. and none of us bought anything! haha. gonna watch the BREAK UP TOMORROW. how exciting
on the FLIP side of things, i srsly need to start studying for promos. LIKE SERIOUSLY.
Sunday, August 20, 2006 ♥ 9:48 PM
sara's gone.and one part of me feels so empty now.
i feel extremely sad! but i know i should be happy for her because she's gone to chase her dream. all i wish for that girl is that she'll never stop dancing. and that she'll be happy. and i know she will because she's sara- the sara that we all love so much.
my friend for ten years, i love you a lot.
and i know this wont be the end of our friendship because God's love will keep the seven of us together.
i miss her already.
cried quite a lot just now and i didnt expect myself to. esp when she walked through those doors. we'll all miss her damn a lot. but thank God that He placed her in our lives (:
thank God for sara because she's been such a blessing.
Saturday, August 19, 2006 ♥ 10:02 PM
ohmegawssssssssshhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
i LOVEEE HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL (:
DISNEY CHANNEL PLAYED IT TONIGHT!!
yayyyy.
one of those movies that make me REALLLLLLLLYYYYY HAPPY ((:
WHY CANT SINGAPORE BE LIKE THAT!!!
so super funky!!
okay everyone prob thinks i'm really sloww.
BUT I REALLY REALLY LIKE IT ((: REALLY REALLY REALLY LIKE IT.
:D
Friday, August 18, 2006 ♥ 12:19 AM
open my eyes to see your sweet faceits a good morning beautiful day (:
love that song. kinda reminds me of tim and min.
i'm so random! but i had an urge to type something here.
so i did!
and now i'm going off to get my well deserved sleep (:
Tuesday, August 15, 2006 ♥ 10:29 PM
INTERCONTINENTAL.it was as usual. spending time with the sevens is always the thing i like to do most.
cos the six of them are the people who remain with me wherever i am.
WATCHED CLICK! at lido after meeting the five of them (lyd's lateeee as usual) and we met lydia there.
was kinda retarded cos we decided to go to fish and co and wheelock.
but when we sat down and ordered, we realised that there was only twenty mins left to the movie.
so we left without ordering anything.
not even water! haha. everyone must have thought we were mad.
CLICK! was really good ((: evokes multiple emotions at one shot.
one minute you're crying and the next minute you're bawling.
which reminds me of my two EXTREMELY emo sitting partners.
which made A LOT of noise throughout the movie.
hoho.
thats what makes a good movie!!
ran into kenneth loe.
and we kinda bullied lydia.
hahaha.
as usual.
back at the continental, we had fun stealing soap, shampoo, conditioner and body lotion.
dancing to chori chori! ahhahah. funniness.
and talking bout random things.
and of course.
PIGGING OUT.
had extremely little bed space.
so i woke up aching everywhere.
and the worst thing was the i had to rush off for dance.
and i had to pay TWO dollars. but i shant talk bout that cos its not a happy thing.
and we were extremely irritated with the people who refused to move in when people were obviously having a lot of dificulty getting onto the train itself.
so everyone, MOVE IN okay.
HILARIOUS! those two mr beans. we ran away while they were posing.
ahhaha.
okay.
HEAL THE WORLD CONCERT
i have an extremely guilty conscience when i miss lessons for dance when all we do is to go to the studio to lie around.
of course we do work and have briefings but that doesnt stop me from feeling bad.
the GEEK that i am.
haha.
nothing much happened.
or rather, i'm too lazy to remember what happened.
showed the pe teachers the aces day thingo.
and they said it was too dancey.
like duh, we're dancers.
hhaha. but we improvised!!
er her.
i had to put eyemake up. AND I HAD A LOT OF FUN PLAYING WITH SHIJIE'S EYE SHADOW COS SHE HAD SO MANY COLOURS. haha. colours make me happy ((:
so i was happily putting on eyeshadow for everyone.
ahhha FUTURE MAKE UP ARTISTE!!!
the PERFORMANCE was good. apparently. cos i saw it on video and it looked rather neat!! but i totally blanked out at the last part so i made up my own steps. but i had so much time so i just WALKED WALKED WALKED WALKED. those four steps were the longest SECONDS in my life.
thought i'd like walk forever.
really really love this dance.
faded abyss (:
even though the 'blindfolds' really irritated me at first.
i love the song and the steps cos somehow, expression comes across so naturally.
amelia our heroine! haha. she's so cuute. all of us agree.
haha.
the concert wasnt that bad i suppose.
all the people who didnt come, YOU MISSED OUT!
hahaha.
okay shall go off now. love to all.
the heart that eric and marcus gave me! (: so sweeet.
Sunday, August 13, 2006 ♥ 11:22 AM
just finished THE ALCHEMIST by paul coelho.its abslolutely mesmerizing.
MAKTUB, the SOUL OF THE WORLD, the language of the world.
the way the shepherd boy could speak to the desert, the wind, the sun, GOD.
the whole book was so fascinating i didnt want to finish it.
so i didnt read it when i had an excuse not to.
i HATE IT when i finish a good book!!
but i finally finished it this morning.
'no heart has ever suffered when it goes in search of its dreams, because every second of the search is a second's encounter with God and with eternity.'
(:
i have no idea as to how to listen to my heart.
maybe it has already stopped speaking to me because i take no heed of it most of the time.
shall blog more bout INTERCONTINENTAL another day.
when i have the time.
WHICH I DONT EVER SEEM TO HAVE ENOUGH OF.
Thursday, August 10, 2006 ♥ 9:40 PM
she knows it allmaybe one day she'll wake up and realise
it was just a nightmare
did something with SOME PEOPLE TODAY.
but cant PUBLICLY blog bout it cos its SECRET.
for now, until tmrw night.
and i cant wait for tmrw cos of THREE REASONS
1- INTERCONTINENTAL WITH SEVENS!!
2- DANCE!
3- TEA RECEPTION!
but then again, i'm really upset as well.
cos i can only meet the sevens after seven.
which really sucks cos rararara is going off really soon.
like next sundaY?
time really flies esp when we want it to come to a standstill doesnt it.
and i'm so irritated cos i have to go to school
for practically no reason.
THERE'S h1 in the morning
so i'm free for like TWO HOURS
after which is math (HAVENT DONE THE FREAKING TUTORIAL!)
and pw.
and econs tutorial (havent done it either!)
MY LOVES!
Wednesday, August 09, 2006 ♥ 11:55 PM
i love you, but i hate you.and i dont know what i'm gonna do.
i'm as confused as me fringe.
ranting again.
i realised i dont really make sense anymore nowadays!
must be the withdrawal symptoms (resultant from post rapture. miss EVERYTHING BOUT IT). doesnt it happen to everyone?
haha.
HAPPY 41ST BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE.
i think some people are so corny.
went to j8 this morning with lydia toh and a lot of the stores there had 41% discount.
-__-"
ahahah. that face's so apt!
had SINFUL things.
but so satisfying!! ((:
then lydia came over and attempted to burn her songs but didnt finish it due to lack of time.
so she's coming over again tmrw after STH STH.
hahaha. NOT PUBLIC YET.
i like the word ameliorate! kinda sounds like amelia.
but then again, thats not the point.
it means to make something better.
and i need someone to do that right now.
SEE! distraction.
okay then SHU picked me up, and mel li shu and i trooped down to KENNETH + SHAUN'S house
(:
their house's really nice (:
played the tablesoccer thing for a while
and i got locked outside the balcony by our darling juan.
cant believe she's eighteen!! haha. turning nineteen at that.
oh my.
then we watched the NDP. which was a freaking waste of time.
saw deon from pre u sem on tv and i was really amused.
i never fail to see someone i know every year.
and every year, these people are caught in such unglam moments.
hoho.
then we played cards.
ate.
played WHACKO!!
i wanted to win okayy..
THANK GOD FOR SHAUNALD cos he's such a great partner.
hate running around in the middle cos i think it makes me look stupid.
dont like doing things that make me look stupid.
which is the reason why i stop halfway sometimes while playing ball games.
now you know.
yea so that was it.
and sometimes, we all need a little space to breathe.
right now, i think we're of age.
but whatever. i love my churchies to bits and pieces.
i'd be even more incomplete without them.
Tuesday, August 08, 2006 ♥ 11:25 PM
AH. YOU'RE SUCH A #^*&#@*#)@(_@(-0. dont like you much. GRAWRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.and i dont know when i'll ever grow up, accept the things i cant change and GET OVER SUCH TRIVIAL AND INSIGNIFICANT THINGS.
I JUST HAD TO BLOG THAT.
'ALL THINGS WILL COME TO A PASS'-mr rafiq tan.
man, i cant wait for two years to be over.
Monday, August 07, 2006 ♥ 12:28 PM
'that we only accept a truth after we have first wholeheartedly rejected it' -the alchemisti miss rapture!!!
even the torturous practices we had before that.
i miss the frantic rush to change, the time we had to slack backstage, take photographs and bask in each other's presence.
thank God we've next year.
just that it wont really be the same cos the seniors won't be here anymoreee.
cant imagine.
and my itunes seems to be playing songs that i've never heard before in my life.
which are really quite nice
anyways.
band concert last night was good!
i think sa band really lives up to its standards.
the concert was a bitttt too long thoughh.
so i didnt get to finish my lit homeworkk.
I'M SICK TODAY!!
the doctor said i had conjunctivitis.
haha is that how you spell it.
need to get down to catching up on my work REALLY REALLY SOON.
and yes
start studying for promos.
oh the mugger toad that i am! ((:
too lazy to upload photos.
plus i didnt have a camera with me!
so HURHURH.
go search forpictures yourself
plenty floating around. (:
Sunday, August 06, 2006 ♥ 12:37 AM
oh my.i'm yearning so much for something that cannot be verbalized or even translated onto paper.
which is rather annoying actually.
cos it makes me so unsure of myself- and You.
RAPTURE WAS A BLAST LAST NIGHT
shared room with xinyi, cindy and leilei.
our room was realllly nicee (:
i think everyone enjoyed themselves tremendously, esp the dancers.
all that HARD WORK and PRACTICE was def worth it when everyone said rapture was DAMNNNN GOOD. ((:
so super satisfying.
and i got kinda emotional watching zaki dance
okay. maybe the entire president dance.
that was when i was struck with how much i love to dance and dance in the very form of the art itself.
and the PASSION and the DESIRE i saw in their eyes totally blew me away.
amazinggg ((:
havent felt so blissful in a long time.
for the FIRST TIME, i got out on time for amelia's dance (:
and i tripped so many times cos of the stupid slippery revolving stage
thank God no one saw!
standing backstage watching broadway during the parts that i wasnt involved made me very happy.
not exactly happy.
AH. cant find a word to describe it.
BUT RAPTURE WAS ABSOLUTE <3
i'm gonna miss the seniors.
even though they TORTURED us for danceworks.
BUT! what doesnt kill us, makes us stronger.
how true :D
(i'm not even gonna complain about the food!)
THANK YOU
amelia, corinne, jilyn, zaki- for choreographing the most beautiful dances for rapture
the SEVENS. shu, diane, lyd, sara, ruth, ryllie- for being my DIEHARD fans (HOHOHO) and for being the most amazing people in the entireuniverse. cant even tell you how much i love the six of you. thegreatest blessing God has bestowed on me ((:
my family (auntyjean, ama, mama, kujie, papa, mummy) for always being supportive
CHURCHIES mel, char, lien, gerald, shaun, rachel, ernest, sarah (and the others who came) for all the encouragement. and shirley and shaunald and everyone else who wished me all the best for rapture!
06A08 <3 for helping me to collect homework and updating me on school things. esp dra, des, ryn, sharleen and my pw group for being so understanding. and marianne for being soo cuute and wishing me all the best way before time.
scgs peepsroxy,wanlin, ricey and somemore- for coming all the way down (:
SAINTShannah, charlene, evan, mok, marcus, eric, emily, lydia, nicky.. and ALOT more others (: hannah and charlene esp for putting up with my constant whining!
dancers seniors, cindy, lynette, xinyi, shijie, junjun, keish, veeks, kris, leilei and everyone else. rapture wouldnt have been so fun without you guys! (: thanks for all the memories.
there are probably many others that i owe a big thank you to.
even though half of the people i mentioned probably wont see this!
but i'm really tired now and cant really think properly.
so THANK YOU all the same.
no matter how perfect it was, there'll always be a downside to things.
and it still puts me off.
i'll probably never be perfect enough for you.
cos your actions tell me that you're just putting on a show and that you dont really care.
and i cant say that i dont care because i know that deep down inside there's still a part of me that i hold onto you.
and thats what keeps me hoping and wishing.
futility i suppose.
sometimes i wish i can cut you out of my life and stick you on somewhere else.
far away from me where i cant see you, cant feel you.
fop today was rather fun.
went to cut my fringe before that.
look kinda odd now cos the fringe pops out.
and i bought a new dress.
couldnt find nice shoes plus necklace.
oh wells.
i love shu and mel (:
NSK! NSK! NSK!!!!
think i shall go off to do work now.
or read miss k's book.
feeling rather guilty.
TARATARRARATARTAR
OH YEA.
and thanks to everyone who came for rapture!!
really hoped you guys enjoyed yourselves (:
and here's a little something for you to do if you're bored.
Dear Amanda,
I _____ you. You have a nice______. You make me _______. You
should _______. Someday I will ______. You + me =________.
If I saw you now I'd __________. I would build a _______ just
for you. If I could sing you any song it would be _________.
We could __________ under the stars.
Love,
_______________
(P.S. ______________.)
OH! maybe i should set up a class blog now.
Tuesday, August 01, 2006 ♥ 9:25 PM
Cause i can breathe again dream againfeel like i've been stuck in a whirlwind with so many things to do.
then again, i guess i dont mind.
and i dont understand why, but i dont want to know how.
sometimes i wonder what i've done to deserve someone like you.
its like some kinda role reversal.
you're stuck in some kinda fairy tale where only YOU exist.
and everything and everyone else around you disappears.
SELF-CENTREDNESS
you totally disgust me
MOTHER.
and sometimes i'll ask myself why i even bother to try and care
if i didnt care, i wont even bother to ask you anything.
i was only trying to give you the concern and a little bit of attention that you lack
despite the fact that i get even less than you
thank God i've got dance to keep my mind occupied.
and dancing makes me happy (:
RAPTURE'S IN TWO DAYS.
TWO DAYS.
hohoho. so exciting :D
i'll find another you
and here are some random pictures
SUNDAY.
CAP! with mel and esther
thought this was quite nicee :D
and on the way home one day, i saw these two cute little kids who were trying so hard to make their parents carry them. the little bat man boy is especially cute (: he'll grow up to be suchhhh a worthy eyecandy specimen (:
random class moments
SA'S CANTEEN (:
and our dearest cindyyy
kinda cracks me up.
she kinda took one of me in the same position. it was hilarious! the cat was darn cuute. (: