Friday, June 29, 2007 ♥ 8:12 PM
stuck between my fantasy and what is real
i am SO SO SO thankful that this week's over. last week was pure pure hell!! (i studied, OKAY! and in the process forfeited so many things!!!! GRAWRWRWRAW^$%^&*()(*) YAY now its OVER haha. but i don't know why i think its over when it's obviously not cos there's still shit math and LIT! (that is the horrific one cause i think the chances of passing are like ZEEERRROOOO) whatever
went for massage with my moooother this afternoon after my paper! went to pick up my aunt after that and they were talking bout shares in the car. so, for novelty's sake, i have decided to put in a measly US$500 in the hopes of having it returned to me one and a half years later three times the amount : D i say MEASLY not because i think thats a small amount, but because other people put in bombastic amounts like US$200 000. HAHAHA.
ANYWAYS, the massage was quite horrible! she touched me EVERYWHERE i swear.. violated much!!! it was BLOODY hot on top of that cos the stupid aircon wasn't working. and WTH if we knew that it was going under reno, we so wouldn't have gone to that branch! i guess the people were really nice though (: shopping after that with my mother and i bought a mango top! (: i think retail therapy really really works (:
know what? i totally KILLED my geepee paper ): even the teacher said so! ROAR.. i think its amazing how i can fail gp. its like ENGLISH, for crying out loud. lets just hope i get an E.. some kinda saving grace would do the job.
i'm gonna see RAFIQ tan soon. SO NOT looking forward to it ):
BUT, SARA'S BACK! (:
Monday, June 25, 2007 ♥ 8:44 PM
ROAR block tests are driving me crazy ):would have gone insane if it weren't for God and my friends (: but i think through this BLOCK TESTS, i got to know God alot better and understand his intentions (:
the past week was beyond crazy with like mugging all round the clock with ryl ruth and diane! but i liked it very much anyways (with the exception of the studying bit).
OKAY. to all those taking exams right now, be strong and take heart (: God will bring us through!
Monday, June 18, 2007 ♥ 12:43 PM
LOOK AT PAUL'S FACE!! (click on it and he's like cross eyed!) isn't hilarious! ahhaha. ernest's face's kinda funny too.
block tests are only but freaking TESTS! can't believe that i'm so stressed for it -_- but after that realisation, i'm not that stressed anymore : D ahaha
Saturday, June 16, 2007 ♥ 10:34 PM
AHHAH call me weird, but i actually felt proud of photobucket when its page finally loaded : Dstudying (or the lack of) has made me somewhat delirious, to a point where i can stare at the black dot on the wall for 15 mins without even blinking. and all i thought of while doing that was 'interest elasticity of the demand of money and MEI'. like a neverending marquee going on inside my head.
internal monologue, like winston smith. speaking of which, i feel like i can truly identify with the protagonist of 1984 because my blister has morphed into something like his very varicose ulcer! (SEEEEE!!! i recognise my own delirium!)
OOOKAY. planetshakers yest was kinda like a waste of time because it was more of a promotion of new creation -_-' AND, the opportunity cost of going was SO HIGH!!! omg thats like the worst thing ever. STAB ME, cos i could have studied. (go to mel's blog to see pictures!) sleptover at shu's house last night and you know what!!! i fell asleep the fastest! like almost immediately after my head hit the pillow : D thats how exhausted i am; not as much physical exhaustion but more of a mental fatigue.
REEEEEEPPPPPLLLLIIIIIEEEEESSS!!
DRA- you're welcome. AGAIN : D
CHAR- HAHA finally. your computer has some kinda problem.. update your blog pls!!
LIEN- hello ahlian : D yea OMG la he's so damn retarded!!! at least you're cooler than him.
GEISHA- HELLO (: you know what, i can't imagine you being a real geisha! like white faced and all. i miss you too!
LYN- true friend, i want to go roller-blading and tanning! and i want to dance too ): but YEA it'll be over before we know it :D
OKAY, break's almost over. BYE FRIENDS (:
Thursday, June 14, 2007 ♥ 3:13 PM
i kinda miss the comfort of having my class around (: as DIVERSE as we are, it's comforting to know that we're all supporting each other right until the very end of Alevels. revision for BT2 sucks, but i seriously don't know what to expect! don't feel like trying anymore ]: ANYWAYS, went to climb bt timah hill this morning with the kua sisters and sister! met cindy and her parents along the way (: she was playing pokemon omg! was quite fun but DEFINITELY tiring. bet we were the most unfit people there! got kinda lost, but we discovered many kind souls in the hill. HAHA. and there was this man who tried taking a picture but failed terribly! OMG hilarious. and i never knw lychee was green and longan pink/purple. GROSS!
<3 then! i'm off to watch teeveeeeee
Tuesday, June 12, 2007 ♥ 6:25 PM
I LOVEE THESE PEOPLE (: AND DIANE AND SARA TOO
stupid exams quick get out of our way!
ah-lian sister YO.
Monday, June 11, 2007 ♥ 2:47 PM
you know, I MISS DANCE LIKE HELL
ironically, the insanity of having dance everyday for an average of eight hours (or more) could have been the only thing that kept me SANE (or maybe half sane).
i really, really, really detest studying!!
BUT! this morning i woke up with a lovely feeling, realising that i love Him very much (: so i'm not complaining ((:
Saturday, June 09, 2007 ♥ 11:36 PM
Well excuse me while I get killed softly,Heart slows down and I can hardly tell you I'm okay
At least 'til yesterday,
You know you got me off my highest guard,
Believe me when I say it's hard.
We'll get through this tonight
And I know one day you and I will be free
And I was trying to disappear,
But you got me wrapped around you
I can hardly breathe without you
I was trying to disappear
But I got lost in your eyes now,
You brought me down to size now.
I'm almost alive
And I need you to try and save me.
It's okay that we're dying
But I need to survive tonight
study hard lovelies (:
Monday, June 04, 2007 ♥ 6:44 PM
EEEE i smell durians ): they stink! but i still eat it anyways : DOKAY, i have JUST made a resolution to not blog UNTIL SUNDAY. because! i need to study!!!!!! plus there's no time to anyways. i shall tell you what's gonna happen this week. tmrw night- dinner at lydia toh's house!! : D yay can see them again (though not ALL OF THEM are going..) i love them you know : D we talk bout everything under the sun, spill our hearts out to each other and laugh at ryl : D how more blessed can i be! wed and thurs there's dance+rehearsal at REPUBLIC POLY which is freaking far away ): plus miss k's (only on wednesday; ahahaha she called herself BIG MAMA today!!!!! hilarioussssssss) then FRIDAY AND SAT'S the performance itself ): gosh where got time to do anything else!! its 21 days to block test and i haven't even started mugginggggg.
because i'm not gonna blog this week and lyd's birthday's on WEDNESDAY,
HAPY BIRTHDAY LYDIA TOH SHU HUI!!!
(sorry was too lazy to flip + resize!! hehe)
: D i love you like crazy. thanks for being SUCH A WONDERFUL FRIEND and allowing us to bully you all the time without ever getting angry, and for being there whenever we need you. like the time when i was sick and you went to the doctor's with me! (: i'm like super duper blessed to have you as a seven! (: wouldn't know what to do without you dabuisai! : D chinese tuition was NEVER a drag cos you were there. STOP BEING LATE though!! its kinda (*&^#$$%^&#@$. hahaha. but i still love you anyways (:
Sunday, June 03, 2007 ♥ 8:59 PM
yay i'm so glad things worked out fine!YE RETREAT!
anyways, i'm really glad i stayed over for the retreat thingey yesterday (: went over after dance cos it was at SAV anyways.. had lotsa fun playing taboo, catching up with rach, talking to sarah/birdy (: and of course shaunathan because i felt like i haven't talked to him for the longest time (: listening to ian's ipod with ernest was kinda fun too although ernest has weird song choices :/ then stupid paul ho dumped water all over me and i got really cold! too bad i had to leave early and stuff ): ANYWAYS, i'm proud of the camp comm, especially my sister cos its quite a feat for someone as untidy as her to be the secretary! (:
i seriously, seriously need to get my ass down to studying ): at this rate, i'm prob not gonna make it in to any of the australia or singapore unis! went to the australian fair with mel today, and i realised that it's gonna be pretty impossible for me to do anything if i get anything worse than B B B ): which kinda sucks considering that i'm happy with passing now. SCARY!
mel & I ((:
think we look pretty funny in the first one (like some kinda act-cute fish. hahaha but like, whatever) thanks mel for coming along with me today (: love you much muchhh (i think your eyes are gorgeous!)
tonight, i'm really happy (: which is good because i haven't felt like this free(??) in a long time.. i hope this feeling never goes away. but then again, i know it will.. BUT FOR NOW, lets not even think bout that (: (omg i just remembered there's miss k tomorrow) i'd rather bask in temporal bliss ((: then again, i'm not gonna stupid like i was before. wasn't worth it, and will never be worth it. there are just too many beneath-the-surface things. seems like there's no one left to confide in all of a sudden- not that there isn't (because people are always telling me that i can trust them), but more like because i'd rather not- once bitten, twice shy afterall.
URGH, this is annoying. my mood just took a 180 deg turn.