leave your dreams behind

Monday, May 30, 2005 ♥ 11:36 PM

today's A HUGE DAY.
CHAR'S SWEET SIXTEEN
CHINESE O LEVELS.
ok chinese first. i think I SCREWED MYSELF!
stupid cao shuai. WENT TO ADD STUPID CAO ZI TOU. haii. then gong han they saiid its radio not tv. how'd i know. plus i cancelled all the correct answers and wrote wrong ones. HOW HOW HOW. and li jie was kinda. weird? ZAO JUS WERE SO SUPER OFFF. haii. screw MOE. but good thing was that the baozhangbaodao tutor made me do before, so PHEW! haha. (: and oh ya. stupid qian song i went to add the yan pang. sighsighsigh. and stupid man. i almost pasted the sticker on the table instead of the paper. ahha. oh wells.
then went out with ruth lyd shu ryl. and colleen, who left halfway. mos and walked around, topshop ryl bought stuff. and we bought char's present. shu and i. and we were so tired la. yawn. after that shu and ryl took cabbie home (SPOILT!) and i took bus home.
and went home wrapped present and ben juan rach tim were there. watched my girl and then the rest came. surprised the not so surprised char. then bbq pit.
ate marshmallows.
WHACKO.
got PUSHED INTO THE POOL
got shu in with me
then jon
then eugene.
so sorry bout your phone eugene. really am.
sigh
i dont know whether it was a good or bad day, but i had fun, and hopefully, char did too cos we were after all celebrating her birthday. and yesterday didnt seem like sunday. had this funny speaker. ahahha. dancing. oh wells. i guess its a good thing
HAPPY SWEET SIXTEENTH CHAR love you sister.
my stupid bananas.

Monday, May 23, 2005 ♥ 12:02 PM

yesterday was cogs family day!
went with rox to birdpark. we werent late ok.
then went to some picnic ground for worship and praises and briefing. couldnt concentrate the whole time cos i was super moddy from the stupid ant bites before that. ewww. i hate ants! hmph. theyre my enemies.
i finished mugging chinese. sorta. but somehow still rather insecure. if its gonna be like this, then i'll probably freak for os. heh.
anyways! i was in uncle ben's group. so were daniel rox sandra uncle meng uncle pakchee and some other uncles and his wife with three kids/2. and edward. ahhaa. our beloved navigator. did quite retarded stuff. and birdpark's like so different! i dont remember it being like that at all. hahaha. its quite. nice. i liked our last station cos it was so cool. but i was screaming like nothing. ahhahaha. cos the stupid birds are damn scary! hahaha. daniel can testify to that! hahaha. then i held worms ok. and i touched them. ahha. its not that bad la. but its quite a pity rox didnt go in. and shu and mel and char they all didnt get to go to that station either.
after that we went back to the picnic grounds. and shu's redhill group won the prize! ahah. its quite huge. then after that ye went out. (:
went to safra. at bukit merah. had to wait for the 251 bus to come. so siannnn. took so long. then after that had to take mrt to redhill and then take a bu s from there. 145. i think. ahha. i have a good memoryyy!! (:
half the huge group went bowling and the other half went to play pool. wah my bowling score SUCKS SO BAD! the first game was quite ok. 90. the second game was like shit. had one strike though. ahahhaha. 69! hahah. quite hilarious. ahhaa. juan and mel went down the second game to play pool. then after that some of the people went home, including my sis shu li and rox. then the rest went to either play pool or arcade. mel char rach and i went to the arcade with paul? jon daniel ben. then me mel rach decided to go to the playground. stupid weird chair! i refuse to sit it. then went back and somehow kenneth benedict shaun were there. then we all went to the playground. mammu? i dont knoww. ouch. my leg's numb. hmph. i love playgrounds. really. ahha. i sat swing and competed with mel who could go highest. and rach was ust squattin there and laughing. ahhaa. and before that she sat the stupid chair which made her so dizzy and pukish. ahha. see! i'm smart not to sit it. still call me chicken! harh!
then went back to the arcade and me mel char sat this retarded ride and rach joined us later. ahhaha. it was meant for two people la. kids to be exact.
ahhaha.
then went to the billiard room to wait for the rest. rach fell asleep. i mugged two chinese chapters. and mel tested me. ahahhaa. dont know so many. but somehow the words looked weird when i wrote them out. hmms.
k then we all went great world! on the bus gerald talked about guys chasing girls and vv. quite weird, but somehow image's more important than almost anything else.
split up for dinner. went with juan and rach and cass to food court. the rest went wither kfc or macs. we're healthy man! the little boys were so poor thingish! hahahaa. farnie. hahaha. yucks. funny (: cass and i were quite retarded. ahhaha
after that walked around a bit. ate yoggie. then went to meet the rest. werent there yet so juan and i went to zara. saw nice clothes. (: eeheehee.
me tthe rest and some booked tix for star wars. didnt go. went home with mel and char before that. ahahaha. oh man. it was so funny outside the handphone shop cos i saw this cute babeeee! then went to say hi. then I HEARD shaun say: thats my grandfather. then i'm like WHAT. hahaha. so shocked. then after that he was like. I DIDNT SAY THAT. i said is that your grandfather. ahhahaha. quite funny. i'm quite deaf, sadly.
and kenneth, sorry la. didnt mean to tease you so much.. forgive us? (:
and i dont know what to do with you.

Wednesday, May 18, 2005 ♥ 11:03 PM

this is a declaration statement.
i, amanda, wont be coming online from the eighteenth to the thirty first of june, excluding fridays, unless it is absolutely necessary. this is due to the fact that i need a distinction for chinese.
(:
peace out all!
love, amanda
meeheehee. this is corny

Sunday, May 15, 2005 ♥ 11:47 AM

ladeedar.
i wonder why things turn out the way they do sometimes.
its weird
and i dont like it
church later. dont feel like dressing up. i wanna go in my pjs. i wanna sleep somemore! but ive gotta do my work.

bananas! B A N A N A S! it's shit its bananas! ahhaha. oh dear. its stuck in my head.

OH NO.

why am i like this.

get over it man.

Saturday, May 14, 2005 ♥ 11:22 PM

rj dance night was fabulous.
(:
especially sc seniors. (: so cool. it's really BREATH-TAKING.
makes me wanna go rj so so so much.
but i cant! with my lousy beyond lousy grades.. how can i even hope that i get it. haii. never mind. (: NJ'S COOL TOO.
in the morning had dancee.. then wanted to go tuition. then we found out auntiexueer had to go jb. so we didnt go. so we went to wisma and got my shoes then lyd left. so i went to meet mummy at centrepoint. walked to heeren and back. i want the fossil watch! the one with crystals one it and black leather strap. its so nice la. but they only had red and PINK. like HOW DISGUSTING. sorry shu! saw juan at wisma. and then saw rice and ryl and kris outside centrepoint. ahha
went home and bathed then it was time to go! ((:
picked shu and lyd up then went to j8 met ryl kris charm ruth rice. then went to get flowers. then diane came. then nicole came. then jingyu came. no no. jingyu came first. then the two childish ones went to get present. ahahha. then i had bad stomachache. met david, the one from sjc. he's so blur. shu was like standing right in front of him and he didnt see. like ivan. maybe its just sjc people. and juan. ahhaha.. just that this time she saw me. probably because samantha saw me and told juan that i was there. ahahha.
then we took taxis to rj. then sara and laura came. their school is huge! so nice. and shu and i kept spotting david everywhere. ahahaa. weirdness! then ramona came. then! the concert started!
yay. was really good man. (: geri's improved so much. super cool. i wish chan could have seen her. she would have ate herself up or something. and ther was good too! so was sam walker! (: they were all good. duh- they were from sc. ahahah. then shu spotted dexter during the interval.
i liked the tap and the hip hop one. the gym with the guys was a bit weird. ahaha. yea.. but i liked everything else. their syf item not bad what! how come only got goldddddd. ): stupid judges.
after the concert was so funny. went upstairs and waited for geri ther and sam. then everytime we saw one of them we'd scream and go hug them. heeheeeee. soo cuuute. i think geri almost cried! took pictures and stuff then we had to go.. so sadddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd. i didnt want it to end. we were being retarded though. singing weird techno songs and stuff. i hahahha. tarzan in handsome tarzan is strongg. ahahha. weird ah weird.
so we had to go. and they were looking for a statue. heh.
ryl gave shu me and amanda a lift homee. so nice. thanks RYL!'s mommy! (:
OH MAN
I WANNA GO RJ! so super nice. roarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. the campus's like HUGE.
ah wells. like shirley said:
ask the Lord where He wants to take you
you* says:
and tell the Lord your desires
you* says:
but let Him be in charge
ok. i shall. miracles happen. ((:

Wednesday, May 11, 2005 ♥ 8:36 PM

had hip hop with bridget today. ahhaha. was quite fun. but so paiseh. ahha.
played captains ball before that. so fun! ahhaha. the stupid ball damn hard to catch. so we were all like SCREAMING and LAUGHING at each other. this is when i am proud to say i am a deegeemon. ((: i love dg! hehe.
geog test tomorrow. dont really feel like mugging. but no choice. i failed geog la. cant believe it. ahhaha. weirdness. i dont want GEOG! why cant i do lit. why didnt i appeal. never mind. it's God's will. no other reasonnnnnnn. or maybe its just cos i was too lazy to appeal. NEVER MIND! no regrets. (:
i shall do well for o levels. (: *cross fingers* ahhaha. i wanna get in NJ/AC/SA! otherwise i'll kill myself. ehehehe. diane's gonna email acjc and ask whether they can take in dancers through the dsa programme. they better. their dance's so laopok. hahahaha

Tuesday, May 10, 2005 ♥ 8:31 PM

this is bad.
i'm supposed to be mugging geog now.
but i'm slacking away.
should have just slept.
kept telling myself to get started but i JUST COULDNT.
no wonder my L1R5 was freaking low.
its like.
TWENTY SEVEN.
how utterly embarrassin.
plus i wanna try for the DSA thing. (:
sounds cool
like ryl said, no harm trying. whether we get in or not, it's God's will.
so just try. no harm neeways.
YAY. the world seems to perfect.
i've got a stomach ache.

AND I HATE BEING A GUY! i feel homosexual! or transvertitish! roar. why cant i just be my own sex. and wHY OH WHY. do i have to be in front and be MALUATED somemore. SMACK THEM AH!

Saturday, May 07, 2005 ♥ 9:39 PM

ok. DANCE WAS DAMN RETARDED.
in the morning after stupid warmup, ALL the sec fours got called into the costume room. we kinda thought it'd be something cool like try on our farmers costume or something. but it turned out to be a brainwashing session! apparently, there was an anonymous letter sent to them moe by a sec four parent.. and so they made us do a survey. MAN. how retarded.
goes sth like this: 2 questions on recess, one on whether we have enough time to eat. (cos the letter said that we were deprived of our recess and we came down with gastric) second: i am happy to come for rehearsals during the june holidays. (obviously we had to put YES) then the next one was: i am happy to come for more practices for the holiday- either that or another i am happy question that HAD TO BE ANSWERED IN A POLITICALLY CORRECT MANNER. ok. WEIRDNESS. then the last question was whether we will be willing to sacrifice time to come for rehearsals (extra) to prepare for the US trip. and all of us put no for that.
then after that we got a lecture.
three things that the teachers are DISAPPOINTED in the sec fours
1) not wearing our uniforms to collect our results. (mrs chan was quite nice. stood up for us)
2) stupid anonymous letter. said something like the parent wouldnt have complained if we didnt complain first. i bet all our parents (everylivingbody in the dance group will know la)
3) staying up there to mingle with the india exchange students for too long.
ALL IN ALL, not being good role models.
RIGHTTTTTTT.
i think its so wrong la. please..
they suck.
especially MRS LIM. wonder whats her problem. she needs a life. BADLY. DESPERATELY. i wonder how her husband stands her. POO.
ok. stop it stop it.
goodness knows why i keep tearing and being so emotional today.
maybe its cos.
i am lousy and fat.
hahaha. lyd would know
went out with her and complained all the way.
poor lyd.
stupid miss sie.
CANT STAND HER.
mrs lim/chan's equivalent. i bet they'd become best of friends.
hahaha.
weird thought.
and i was TWO HOURS LATE FOR BS MEETING YESTERDAY. cos i thought it was seven thirty. turned out to be five thirty so i missed it completely so i went to join the open cells. i think its more interesting. nicer. (:
went out with shu and char before that after dance. went to get her specs. saw nice slippers. (: we're getting them after chinese os right shu? ahahah.(:
speaking of that, there are only twenty three days left.
EVERYONE, good luck!
frost had grooming today. soo pweeetttyy! (: hehe.