Monday, April 18, 2005 ♥ 8:04 PM
WARNING- BORING.ive been thinking about dance.i dont know why, but somehow i cant figure out how come we're not like the other groups.. they all seem to be so happy and so. close together? and their teachers are like WHOA. and they're respected. dance's like how pathetic.reading the blogs of the other cca blogs and stuff makes me realise the HUGE DEEFEERENCEEE in our attitudes and they way we speak of our ccas.. its like there's no fire, no passion, no longing. its just complaining and moaning and groaning and all the not nice things. boo. wish it wasnt this way. the situation's like bad. esp after we got scolded for the most absurd reason the other day. still cant take it lying down. it was supposed to be a happy occassion! really. but duh. things are better now than before. at least the sec fours are closer and so nice and close together. i like it this way. i love how we all pray together before going in for the competition. and how we talk bout everything. ahahha. which includes a lotta crap. but thats what makes it fun. (: dance should be about that. but that can only happen when we're outta sight of chan and deans and their alliance. and outside the dance room. how are we supposed to express ourselves through dance if they limit us and deprive us of absolutely everything to smile about? i dont know when i can ever dance the way that i think dance should be like. only during concert PERFORMANCES itself and competitions that i think the dancers really have fun cos then they know that they only have to do it once. and thats when they give it their all. and smile. REALLY smile. how can we even fake a smile when we know that we have to do it a gazillion more timeS? and i dont know. its all fake la. and its not all their fault. its my fault too for seeing it this way. but i cant help it! i wouldnt want to if i didnt have to. or if there werent such things. whats the point of our gold with honours. duh its prestigious and whoaish. but what's the point? whats the point if everytime we've to go for dance prac we're dreading it? look at band. i dont know. they even read their instrument books in class. ahahhaa. i dont know when any dancer will ever do that. ahahaha. what a joke. but that's the difference i'm talking about. the passion for what they do.theyve put the fire out- not only in me, but i think in quite a lota of other people as well.but still, i'm thankful for all the dancers. (: esp the sec fours. theyre the best. ahahha. what can i say man. ahahha.ok. dont know what made me blog such things. but somehow, i just feel that i dont want my sec four year to end like that. but the only way for it not to end like that is probably when mrs chan retires. good luck sec twos and below. ahahaha. cos i dont think there's any chance of her retiring anytime soon. ahhaha. still so strong. ahahha. esp her mouth.k. shall stop being so mean. and so cynical. i love dancing. i hate, detest, loathe dance.